I love time travelling! I am a fan of history, places, zodiacs, and any supernatural phenomena. And I have been reading and hearing this Mercury Retrograde and god knows my energy is getting exhausted by counselling office mates, friends and even strangers, who have been experiencing this universal turn. Emotions are pouring down as crazy as fuck and yeah I am here to act as a toilet bowl. Come through!
I don’t really want to believe in that retrograde and no exes have been contacting me either. So I want to create my own Mercury Retrograde just because I am the creator of my own story. Hell, yeah!
Three months ago, this blog is non-existent. I was just endlessly talking to myself and merely living in my own head. I was reaching out to people to ask so many questions about life, relationships, gossips and because of that, they avoided me thinking I am loosing it. Yes, I know, duh. I was very hopeful of 2019 to be better than my 2018. Like, level-up better, one note higher. I was conscientiously waking up every day and taking selfie is my only hobby. Aside from that, I function like a robot – there’s no meaning in everything but I flawlessly projected someone who is so awesome, happy, smart and intelligent living matter. But right now? I do not need to fake it. It just became real.
Three months ago, I was viciously needy and helplessly compulsive. I have depended my happiness to someone or anything. Food? Smelling and devouring them made my heart pound. Stranger? Talking to them made me feel needed and likable. Travelling? Experiencing it makes me feel present in the moment. Work? Doing it made me a responsible human being. Sex? It gave a millisecond of human satisfaction. But right now? I no longer oblige myself to really binge on food, meet up with strangers, travel around, slaved myself for work or have a steamy and intense intercourse with someone else. I just found me, my own oasis.
Renew, restart and reconnect with yourself. Did you try to see yourself and create your own retrograde? How about feeling you? How about doing you? How about just observing you? How is that? Don’t let Mercury do you. *wink
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